Retrospection!

This Friday, I time traveled. It was like watching the last 4 and half years of my life in a flash. A flashback! Those struggles, those dismays, those fun, those amateurishness, those missed opportunities, those wrong turns, those frustrations, those sweet emotions are all there-  locked in my Gmail account. I saw them all from a safe distance this Friday, sitting at my office desk, as I was browsing through my mailbox from the order of the oldest mails to date. I was numb. I didn’t know how should I feel! Should I feel better for me? Should I open a bottle of scotch to celebrate where I do stand today, considering where was I 27 months ago? I could not decide. It brought back many unpleasant memories. That is also a reason why I want to enjoy and cherish every moment of this life. These are my hard earned days. I look at the days gone by and at some point I feel pity for myself. But on a positive note, they make me stronger. It resembles the story of a phoenix. Every time I “die”, I born again to a better life. The “dying” part, however, never ends. It repeats itself in a cycle. Some times in one form and other times in another. I wonder when this cycle would break? It’s okay to have an occasional cough and cold, but when it becomes chronic, then it is a matter of concern. That is exactly the case here. Today also, my head is heavy with many things. Certain things, I don’t know how to deal with. Some other things, I don’t know when they will act in my favor. I just crib on, I just crawl on, because the stage has been set and the show must go on. As goes the famous quote from Rocky Balboa: “It ain’t about how hard you hit. It’s about how hard you can GET hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done!”

Till the next time, cheers and keep rocking!