It’s been quite a break from the blog. Though I kind of “celebrated” online that the number of subscribers for my blog has gone up to 125, which is, for me, nothing much shorter than an achievement in itself, I refrained from blogging for the past 4.5 months. I not only refrained from blogging, but also deleted a bunch of posts from the site. I guess that’s a part of growing up, realizations, and all that. Not that my writing or not writing would make an iota of difference to anyone, but I was still missing this space. There has always been an urge to come back here, to write. In all these, a few people asked me why am I not blogging. That’s encouraging 🙂
Anyway, so the nice, cozy Pune winter and the much awaited time of the year has arrived. The new year resolution posts have also started to come up gradually on Facebook. A nice, positive environment everywhere. I remember whenever people used to ask me about my new year resolution till a couple of years ago, I used to say- 1024×768. It was not just a PJ, but a satirical message: I don’t care!
I do not like to make resolutions. You want to make a change in your life? Do it right away, why wait till 01st Jan of every year? But yes, I do take some time during this period to think back about the events that had happened around me in the passing year. 2012 was really a very “happening” year for me. I had mentioned all of that in my post Twenty Twelve (You can read from here: Twenty Twelve) . “Life” was the call then. Changes. 2013 also started on the same note. 2013 was the year of struggle, in some spheres. I am not sure if I can call it as “struggle”, but yes- a fight with all the forces against me to get things in shape and to “settle down” in life. That “settling down” was never a part of my plan though. But it was all a part of “growing up”.
Many things have happened in 2013 for the first time. It was a year of exposure to the bad and the worst. To nightmares. So, I guess, it can safely be called a year of learning. Learning not in terms of some philosophical bullshit, but some practical lessons of this world. The lessons of survival. The lessons that a man needs to be expert at. Like a cub learning to hunt. And things about family- what a family means. I guess, sometimes we get so lost in our own world that we fail to appreciate or give proper value or recognize a lot of things that make us who we are. Specially the second half (more so, the last week) of this year was a real teacher (it’s still 1.5 days remaining in this year. Just hoping that it goes by in a good note!). I read this quote somewhere on Facebook today:
Take chances- a lot of them, because honestly, no matter where you end up and with whom, it always ends up the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are. You learn and grow with each choice you make. Everything is worth it. Say how you feel. Always be you… and be okay with it.
I believe, I have been following the above path since I can remember, without caring about anything or anyone, being who I really am. And I am glad to have a wife who supports me in everything I do. I can be just myself and not think about anything. What can be better than that? However, maybe I am thinking too much, I have a feeling that many people do not like my attitude of expressing things and saying my heart out. Basically, making my life an open book and letting them judge. That’s their choice (to hate me) and so is mine (to express myself). I am a writer (in some sense), and I’ll continue to do so (write and express). You hate me? Get off me.
On the brighter side, I have moved back to my preferred workplace. I feel belonged and loved here. With all that, I am looking forward to a happier 2014 and I wish you all a very happy year ahead. May this year mark the start of a never-ending happiness and prosperity for you all. Forget some hiccups. They are needed to appreciate the better things that you have. Keep your head high. Let your conscience be your guide. Cheers!
PS: What’s “coming back to life”, you might ask. Figure it out, I would say.